I know you are listening, and I am not here to beg you, I am here to love you and let you know My father will be OK. He has suffered a lot, and I know he had made many mistakes in life ( we all do right?), so please forgive him, and I know that now is the time for him to change. And you have taught him a great lesson, and he is willing to learn now, so God , please give him this chance, he is a good man and he has a long life to go. God, I know I have made mistakes too, now it's time for me to learn too. I am ever grateful. I don't want nothing else. Just peace with my parents. And I know you are listening...he is learning his lesson so please God let me HEAL him, so I know I finally can do something meaningful for another human being--my dearest daddy, God, I know you are listening. I love you and ALL is well. He was very sensitive and he had a lot of anger, but NOW it's time for him to change, and he is willing. And I am helping him. After he comes here in the USA, he will achieve his perefct well-being. He is a compassionate person, and he has a good heart, he just did not know how to LOVE himself, forgive him, and teach him this lesson, and I know he will know your power as I DO.
Dear GOD, my father is in your hand now, please give him this chance to learn his lesson, he is a truly LOVING, KIND, Beautiful Being. God Please forgive me too, I was too moody and over-acting, now I know that only peace of mind can heal and can do everything good. Thank you God, Thank you Daddy, Thank you Mom, Thank you grandma, Thank you love, thank you lIFE. ALL is divine. And my daddy will go through this difficult time, cause I know HE DESERVES IT!
LOVE, from Niki
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Witnessing: The Passing of a Legend—Michael Jackson
“Today is a sad day, because we lost a legend, today is also a great day, cause we got to celebrate, celebrate life, celebrate love. Celebrate the planet earth, cause each one of us who witnessing the history already becomes part of the legacy. And it will go on and on, and yes Legends don’t die, he never left. We are the world. We are the future. We are love. We are here to celebrate.”
“I don’t believe this world is falling apart, in a way, it’s falling together.”
June, 25, 2009, 3:30 pm , I was walking on Vine street just passing Sunset.
I was going to watch a show in Hollywood. I saw three kids were sitting on a star with a candle lit up and all. I asked them what’s going on, he said Michael Jackson is dead, “What do you mean Michael Jackson is dead?” he said yes, he died half an hour ago, “ No fucking way!! You kidding me!” “No man, that’s why we are here. ” I suddenly burst into tears, no fucking way this legend passed away. No fucking way.
I just did not believe it. I still don’t believe it. Maybe I just don’t want to. It was a shock. It was a shock for all. The world was crying. The world was in tears. I just could not believe it. It was like a dream, I suddenly fell into a black hole. This world is unpredictable. All kinds of things are happening in the world, and now you hear Michael Jackson is dead. It was not a completely surprise, but after a while it hits you, it hits you so bad, and you don’t even have tears. You become numb. It was just too unreal to be real. It was not the real Michael Jackson Star, but who cares? People got the heart. The real star in front of the Chinese theater was blocked due to a premiere, so everyone came here.
“Fuck!” how could this happen? This is really a world that nobody can predict. I was angry, I was bursting into tears. I don’t believe it. I don’t believe it at all. Then more and more and people came, the news people too. People bring candles, flowers, notes, pictures…this is un-real! Of course I know who Michael Jackson is, I grew up with his music, since I was a little girl in China. That was early 90s. He became big in China since the 1990. I listened to him, first time I heard him on the radio, I remember everyone in my classroom bought his tapes, one guy was crazy about him, he said whenever he had to do an exam, he had to listen to him cause his music is like a battery, charging him. It was so true, Michael was part of everyone’s life, I saw people came, 50 years old, 5 years old, all generations were influenced by his music and his love. His is more than his music, like a person said in the card. A eight years old boy next to me, he asked me for a piece of paper, and he wanted to write something for Michael. So he did “Michael Jackson, Thank you so much for making music that we will remember forever, no matter what you will be the king of the POP forever. We’ll miss you so much Michael. –wills.”
Someone told me he was at UCLA in the last few days, he was at the LA film festival, well, two days ago I was there for the LA film festival. And I passed by UCLA medical center, I did not know he was there.
I sat on vine for the whole day, from 3:30pm till midnight. People coming and going, people crying, people laughing, people singing, people dancing. It was a great celebration. I did not want to talk, I did not want to talk at all. The only person I want to talk is NOT here. I closed my eyes, and put my hands together, and burst into tears. Silent pain. Silence. We all are temporarily on this planet, why fighting? why killing? Why hate? There is no need for that. Life is too precious, and Michael taught me how to love. how to give, and how to build a planet that includes everyone, it does not matter you are black or white, yellow or brown, we are one, and the world is finally awaking.
A guy said to me, I just saw your interview on the news, if everyone is like you, the world will be so peaceful, no war no thing. I said you got that right. I was thinking, the world was so different now, after a legend’s passing, at least in Hollywood. I saw people coming from all over, I saw all the bars and cars playing his music, that’s love, Michael , you taught us so much about love but you were being misunderstood so much. I just wish you received so much love while you were alive.
The history is gone. But not our hearts. Cause I don’t believe in death.
I was communicating with his spirit. I was kneeling down, I felt that was a special moment, special day, I felt God, I felt divine, I wanted to cry, I also wanted to laugh, the tears blended with the joy came out from my system. He never left. Cause legends don’t die.
I am not a religious person, but I believe spirits. Life is very fragile, it’s unpredictable. We are all in the same boat. Yes, the humanity. I was thinking about the destiny of humans, where are we going? This world is filled with chaos, violence, and greed. And the angels keep passing, but I don’t believe this world is falling apart, in a way, it’s falling together. I was speaking to the News, whenever people interviewed me I told them the same: Today is a sad day, because we lost a legend, today is also a great day, cause we got to celebrate, celebrate life, celebrate love. Celebrate the planet earth, cause each one of us who witnessed the history already became part of the legacy. And it will go on and on, and yes Legends don’t die, he never left. We are the world. We are the future. We are love. We are here to celebrate. Yes, we are here to cry, to memorize a legend, we are also here to celebrate, to celebrate his life, to celebrate his music, to celebrate life itself, that’s what a tragedy like this will do for us. When a star passing, we also see the light arising the horizon, cause we are the people, we are the Children, we are the future, we are love, we are life, yes, we are the world.
I was on Vine from 3pm till mid-night on May 25, 2009. It was such a beautiful day, we were crying, we were laughing, we were dancing, we were singing, we were celebrating. I read many personal notes, drawings, words, flowers, cards, it’s just such a beautiful day, people came together to celebrate, that’s what I told people, each one of us is part of the history, this only happens in our lifetime once, and we want to carry the torch. A eight years old boy told me he cried the whole night. I asked him where do you think Michael went, he said Heaven, I would rather believe what he said is true, when I look at the sky, I saw his face, yes, he is looking down, he is looking down at us. Yes, the physical body does die, but the spirit lives forever. His soul somewhere in the universe now smiles.
June, 26, 2009, 7:30am, I was at his real star. More people, more crowded, people came just to take his pictures, I wonder how many people are really touched by his music and was in pain cause this legend. I just could not hold my tears, when I saw more flowers, more candles, more drawings and pictures. I read each one of them, cause he was part of everyone’s life, and he will be. I wonder if he did not die, how many people going to listen to his music, and how many people will remember him, and how many people will take pics of his star? But today was a special day, he died, his star on Hollywood was finally revealed, and I was there to witness the whole process.
It was packed, candles, flowers, notes, pictures, drawings, paintings, everyone brought heir hearts. I did not take my camera, I don’t want to take any pictures cause I know Michael don’t need any pictures, he needs peace.
But Hollywood wasn’t peaceful today, the police let everyone get out the star, and they closed the star, so everyone has to wait in line to pay the visit. It was such a long line, I never see this in my life, I wondered how many people there were really in pain.
So Michael Jackson is dead, everyone was waiting in the line like visiting a museum, the memorial service is like a party, people take pics and go, but I danced, a guy brought a boombox, with Beat It, Bad, God, I love all his music, I danced my ass off. I would rather to dance off my pain, but I know it’s hard.
Most people came here for the big news instead of to remember this legend. Legends don’t die. He never left. Today is a sad day cause we lost a legend. Today is also a great day cause we got get together to celebrate.
A lady told me yesterday was her birthday, and Michael passed. I was wondering where he did go. I don’t believe heaven and hell. I would rather believe the spirit lives forever. It does not matter you are black or white. Personally I feel like Michael Jackson is a good person, he had a good heart, he tried to bring the world together, it does not matter your color, it’s the love to bring people tether, and that’s how he lived his life, through love and give. My friend Christopher recorded the Bad album with him, and they did the world tour together, he told me how kind a person he is. When the news interviewed me I told them Michael was misunderstood by so many people, I really deeply believe that his heart is innocent, he said he is always 4 year old. He is a child inside, he is pure and he had a lot of love, I was crying, at his star, I wasn’t the only one. Yes, that’s us, we don’t know how to cherish things till we lose it. I always wonder how many people going to buy his album and listen to his music, or care about him as a human being if he was still alive. Yes, death defines the fine line. I was writing a Chinese article about Plastic surgeries two weeks ago, in the article I was saying Michael Jackson wouldn’t live long because of his plastic surgeries. And two weeks later, now he passed. And this is not a joke, we all going to die someday, but our spirit going live forever. So today is a sad day, today also a great day, I suddenly felt I can do anything, No fear. Nothing to be afraid of. Since a legend can die, how about each one of our human beings? We can live a life with love, so when we die with no regrets. I wished while he was alive, he received a lot of love. Being a star was not easy, being Michael Jackson wasn’t easy, But Michael you did it. Finally you can rest, you already done what you were supposed to do. You had your pain, you had your love, you had your life, now the rest of us have to live our life, with hope, with love, with passion, with the vitality that he always put into his music. Rest, Michael, you are in peace now.
Amen.
Niki Yan
June, 26, 2009 1:39pm Hollywood
“I don’t believe this world is falling apart, in a way, it’s falling together.”
June, 25, 2009, 3:30 pm , I was walking on Vine street just passing Sunset.
I was going to watch a show in Hollywood. I saw three kids were sitting on a star with a candle lit up and all. I asked them what’s going on, he said Michael Jackson is dead, “What do you mean Michael Jackson is dead?” he said yes, he died half an hour ago, “ No fucking way!! You kidding me!” “No man, that’s why we are here. ” I suddenly burst into tears, no fucking way this legend passed away. No fucking way.
I just did not believe it. I still don’t believe it. Maybe I just don’t want to. It was a shock. It was a shock for all. The world was crying. The world was in tears. I just could not believe it. It was like a dream, I suddenly fell into a black hole. This world is unpredictable. All kinds of things are happening in the world, and now you hear Michael Jackson is dead. It was not a completely surprise, but after a while it hits you, it hits you so bad, and you don’t even have tears. You become numb. It was just too unreal to be real. It was not the real Michael Jackson Star, but who cares? People got the heart. The real star in front of the Chinese theater was blocked due to a premiere, so everyone came here.
“Fuck!” how could this happen? This is really a world that nobody can predict. I was angry, I was bursting into tears. I don’t believe it. I don’t believe it at all. Then more and more and people came, the news people too. People bring candles, flowers, notes, pictures…this is un-real! Of course I know who Michael Jackson is, I grew up with his music, since I was a little girl in China. That was early 90s. He became big in China since the 1990. I listened to him, first time I heard him on the radio, I remember everyone in my classroom bought his tapes, one guy was crazy about him, he said whenever he had to do an exam, he had to listen to him cause his music is like a battery, charging him. It was so true, Michael was part of everyone’s life, I saw people came, 50 years old, 5 years old, all generations were influenced by his music and his love. His is more than his music, like a person said in the card. A eight years old boy next to me, he asked me for a piece of paper, and he wanted to write something for Michael. So he did “Michael Jackson, Thank you so much for making music that we will remember forever, no matter what you will be the king of the POP forever. We’ll miss you so much Michael. –wills.”
Someone told me he was at UCLA in the last few days, he was at the LA film festival, well, two days ago I was there for the LA film festival. And I passed by UCLA medical center, I did not know he was there.
I sat on vine for the whole day, from 3:30pm till midnight. People coming and going, people crying, people laughing, people singing, people dancing. It was a great celebration. I did not want to talk, I did not want to talk at all. The only person I want to talk is NOT here. I closed my eyes, and put my hands together, and burst into tears. Silent pain. Silence. We all are temporarily on this planet, why fighting? why killing? Why hate? There is no need for that. Life is too precious, and Michael taught me how to love. how to give, and how to build a planet that includes everyone, it does not matter you are black or white, yellow or brown, we are one, and the world is finally awaking.
A guy said to me, I just saw your interview on the news, if everyone is like you, the world will be so peaceful, no war no thing. I said you got that right. I was thinking, the world was so different now, after a legend’s passing, at least in Hollywood. I saw people coming from all over, I saw all the bars and cars playing his music, that’s love, Michael , you taught us so much about love but you were being misunderstood so much. I just wish you received so much love while you were alive.
The history is gone. But not our hearts. Cause I don’t believe in death.
I was communicating with his spirit. I was kneeling down, I felt that was a special moment, special day, I felt God, I felt divine, I wanted to cry, I also wanted to laugh, the tears blended with the joy came out from my system. He never left. Cause legends don’t die.
I am not a religious person, but I believe spirits. Life is very fragile, it’s unpredictable. We are all in the same boat. Yes, the humanity. I was thinking about the destiny of humans, where are we going? This world is filled with chaos, violence, and greed. And the angels keep passing, but I don’t believe this world is falling apart, in a way, it’s falling together. I was speaking to the News, whenever people interviewed me I told them the same: Today is a sad day, because we lost a legend, today is also a great day, cause we got to celebrate, celebrate life, celebrate love. Celebrate the planet earth, cause each one of us who witnessed the history already became part of the legacy. And it will go on and on, and yes Legends don’t die, he never left. We are the world. We are the future. We are love. We are here to celebrate. Yes, we are here to cry, to memorize a legend, we are also here to celebrate, to celebrate his life, to celebrate his music, to celebrate life itself, that’s what a tragedy like this will do for us. When a star passing, we also see the light arising the horizon, cause we are the people, we are the Children, we are the future, we are love, we are life, yes, we are the world.
I was on Vine from 3pm till mid-night on May 25, 2009. It was such a beautiful day, we were crying, we were laughing, we were dancing, we were singing, we were celebrating. I read many personal notes, drawings, words, flowers, cards, it’s just such a beautiful day, people came together to celebrate, that’s what I told people, each one of us is part of the history, this only happens in our lifetime once, and we want to carry the torch. A eight years old boy told me he cried the whole night. I asked him where do you think Michael went, he said Heaven, I would rather believe what he said is true, when I look at the sky, I saw his face, yes, he is looking down, he is looking down at us. Yes, the physical body does die, but the spirit lives forever. His soul somewhere in the universe now smiles.
June, 26, 2009, 7:30am, I was at his real star. More people, more crowded, people came just to take his pictures, I wonder how many people are really touched by his music and was in pain cause this legend. I just could not hold my tears, when I saw more flowers, more candles, more drawings and pictures. I read each one of them, cause he was part of everyone’s life, and he will be. I wonder if he did not die, how many people going to listen to his music, and how many people will remember him, and how many people will take pics of his star? But today was a special day, he died, his star on Hollywood was finally revealed, and I was there to witness the whole process.
It was packed, candles, flowers, notes, pictures, drawings, paintings, everyone brought heir hearts. I did not take my camera, I don’t want to take any pictures cause I know Michael don’t need any pictures, he needs peace.
But Hollywood wasn’t peaceful today, the police let everyone get out the star, and they closed the star, so everyone has to wait in line to pay the visit. It was such a long line, I never see this in my life, I wondered how many people there were really in pain.
So Michael Jackson is dead, everyone was waiting in the line like visiting a museum, the memorial service is like a party, people take pics and go, but I danced, a guy brought a boombox, with Beat It, Bad, God, I love all his music, I danced my ass off. I would rather to dance off my pain, but I know it’s hard.
Most people came here for the big news instead of to remember this legend. Legends don’t die. He never left. Today is a sad day cause we lost a legend. Today is also a great day cause we got get together to celebrate.
A lady told me yesterday was her birthday, and Michael passed. I was wondering where he did go. I don’t believe heaven and hell. I would rather believe the spirit lives forever. It does not matter you are black or white. Personally I feel like Michael Jackson is a good person, he had a good heart, he tried to bring the world together, it does not matter your color, it’s the love to bring people tether, and that’s how he lived his life, through love and give. My friend Christopher recorded the Bad album with him, and they did the world tour together, he told me how kind a person he is. When the news interviewed me I told them Michael was misunderstood by so many people, I really deeply believe that his heart is innocent, he said he is always 4 year old. He is a child inside, he is pure and he had a lot of love, I was crying, at his star, I wasn’t the only one. Yes, that’s us, we don’t know how to cherish things till we lose it. I always wonder how many people going to buy his album and listen to his music, or care about him as a human being if he was still alive. Yes, death defines the fine line. I was writing a Chinese article about Plastic surgeries two weeks ago, in the article I was saying Michael Jackson wouldn’t live long because of his plastic surgeries. And two weeks later, now he passed. And this is not a joke, we all going to die someday, but our spirit going live forever. So today is a sad day, today also a great day, I suddenly felt I can do anything, No fear. Nothing to be afraid of. Since a legend can die, how about each one of our human beings? We can live a life with love, so when we die with no regrets. I wished while he was alive, he received a lot of love. Being a star was not easy, being Michael Jackson wasn’t easy, But Michael you did it. Finally you can rest, you already done what you were supposed to do. You had your pain, you had your love, you had your life, now the rest of us have to live our life, with hope, with love, with passion, with the vitality that he always put into his music. Rest, Michael, you are in peace now.
Amen.
Niki Yan
June, 26, 2009 1:39pm Hollywood
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Take Nothing for Granted...
Life is a gift...every moment is precious....please LOVE YOURSELF, take care of YOUR BODY and MIND. HAVE PEACE, realize NOTHING IS MORE Important than your HEALTH, so PLEASE LOVE & Take Care of Yourself, For You, and for the ONES YOU LOVE........
Stop the rat race...go home to visit your parents...call them on the phone and have a beautiful meal..........
Stop and pause for a moment....what is THE MOST important in your LIFE? Not money, not power, not fame, not vanity...not worries and rat race..IT's YOU...YOUR OWN well-being and your loved ONES'. so stop for a second now....make a phone call, send a flower, go out have dinner with the ONE YOU CARE....
LIFE IS short...so every day is precious...DON'T Wait till it's TOO LATE...
Send LOVE to your LOVED ones...send LOVE to the ones you hate...SEND LOVE to the So-called Enemy...SEND LOVE AROUND the WORLD...............................
PEACE. LOVE. & DIVINE LIGHT.--NIKI YAN, IN Hollywood...But I feel connected with you ALL. I want to send my love to you, I want to send my LOVE to the so-called enemy..GOD BLESS YOU ALL.
Prayers for those are sick, in pain, in the hospital and Nursing homes...(I want to send this special Prayer to my friend's Father in China...
My best friend's father is having cancer, and he is dying.......any monent....now
My friend grew up with me, have not talked to him for a while, so I called him tonight, ( he was in another side of the world) and he told me his father having cancer....and it's later stage....the hospital said he only have 1-2 months left...and it has been one month now.................................
I always think what really important in life when I see someone pass away from a fatal disease.......his father is ONLY 57. I pray for GOD let him recorver, I pray for GOD SAVE his LIFE....I pray for GOD.
I also pray for GOD for everyone suffering on this planet.
GOD BLESS everyone, esp. those in pain, those in the hospital and nurse homes....I LOVE YOU ALL. And I'm sending the HEALING energy, right here , right now for you....if you are reading this...and your LOVED ones are in pain...my prayer is for THEM too. GOD BLESS You ALL. Amen.
DIVINE GOD,
PLease Help Those who are in pain....please give them hope and let them live
we are all YOUR children, and we all came from DIVINE LOVE...so let them live, give them optimum health....let them SHINE...LIKE A human being....
Divine GOD, Divine LOVE...ALLMIGHTY power, please SAVE THOSE wha are suffering and please HELP them ,and bring them LOVE and LIGHT..and Healing Energy...
Under Your Divine LIGHT, I know ALL IS WELL.
Amen.
Friday, November 9, 2007
You are so LOVED
Know that I am angel....know that
You are Angel
Know that You are Infinite
You are LOVE
You are Infinite LOVE
You are DIVINE
Everything RESIDES in YOU!!
You are so loved
And you are eternal...
Think what you TRULY want
Think what you truly feel important...
Trust Your Heart
Follow your inner voice
Believe the Higher Guidance
Have faith in GOD
Cause
GOD
IS
YOU.
He
Never
Left
YOU.
GOD
IS
WITHIN
YOU.
ALWAYS.
Before you were BORN and
after YOU DIE.
YOU ARE DIVINE.
YOU ARE LOVED.
So, anything is POSSIBLE....
JUST TRUST
That DIVINE ORDER
You are Perfect, and Everything is Perfect
RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW
all THE DOORS ARE OPEN FOR YOU NOW
so ENJOY!, Laugh!! SMILE!!! LOVE.
HEAVEN On EARTH?
YES.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Feel whatever you choose
Stop working so diligently to make your feelings match your circumstances. Realize instead that you can select and direct your feelings to create much more favorable circumstances of your own choosing.
There's no law that says you must harbor feelings of disappointment, dismay, anger and futility when events don't go your way. You can just as easily feel amused, enlightened and more positively inspired than ever before.
You could use your feelings to prolong a difficult situation. Or you can choose other feelings that will enable you to transcend your greatest difficulties and move forward.
How do you feel positive when the world around you is so negative? Just ask yourself whether you would rather be imprisoned by your feelings or empowered by them.
From moment to moment, you are constantly choosing which feelings to hold on to and which ones to discard. Be ever mindful of this power that is yours, for by improving the way you feel you can improve anything in your life to whatever degree you decide.
Your feelings are powerful forces, and by taking control of them you can move your life in any direction. Feel whatever you choose, and you are choosing to make it so.
-- Ralph Marston
There's no law that says you must harbor feelings of disappointment, dismay, anger and futility when events don't go your way. You can just as easily feel amused, enlightened and more positively inspired than ever before.
You could use your feelings to prolong a difficult situation. Or you can choose other feelings that will enable you to transcend your greatest difficulties and move forward.
How do you feel positive when the world around you is so negative? Just ask yourself whether you would rather be imprisoned by your feelings or empowered by them.
From moment to moment, you are constantly choosing which feelings to hold on to and which ones to discard. Be ever mindful of this power that is yours, for by improving the way you feel you can improve anything in your life to whatever degree you decide.
Your feelings are powerful forces, and by taking control of them you can move your life in any direction. Feel whatever you choose, and you are choosing to make it so.
-- Ralph Marston
Monday, October 15, 2007
The best you can imagine
Imagine for a moment that your every desire has been fulfilled, and that even the dreams you dare not to dream have become a reality. Imagine a life with no worries, no fears, no limitations, with nothing to fight against, nothing standing in your way, nothing to hold you back.
How would you live each moment of each day in such a bright and shining reality? If you truly had it all, what, precisely, would you do with it and who would you become?
As you imagine yourself living out your most treasured dreams, you begin to touch the tangible and authentic purpose behind those dreams. And you come to understand that the person you would become if you truly had it all, is already with you even now.
That purpose which longs to be fulfilled is very much a part of who you are today, no matter how distant your dreams may seem. Those dreams are very much alive in you, and a great portion of their value you already have.
Life is found not in waiting or hoping for anything to come to you. Life is best lived knowing that who you are and what you have is always more than enough.
The best you can imagine is already here, ready to be lived out. Allow it to unfold, moment after moment, day after day, as you experience the magnificent blessing that is your life.
-- Ralph Marston
How would you live each moment of each day in such a bright and shining reality? If you truly had it all, what, precisely, would you do with it and who would you become?
As you imagine yourself living out your most treasured dreams, you begin to touch the tangible and authentic purpose behind those dreams. And you come to understand that the person you would become if you truly had it all, is already with you even now.
That purpose which longs to be fulfilled is very much a part of who you are today, no matter how distant your dreams may seem. Those dreams are very much alive in you, and a great portion of their value you already have.
Life is found not in waiting or hoping for anything to come to you. Life is best lived knowing that who you are and what you have is always more than enough.
The best you can imagine is already here, ready to be lived out. Allow it to unfold, moment after moment, day after day, as you experience the magnificent blessing that is your life.
-- Ralph Marston
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